hard to fathom, a magnum up to your head to forget her
barrel cold against your temple as you're tuggin on the lever
that might finally bring you piece of mind, *chuckle* or a few
and i want to do it so bad, if you only knew
how serious i was maybe you woldn't write me off faggot
but it's kool, i know hard it is to kick a habit
i've got a few myself, most of them considered bad
like this .

45 i'm starin down, wanna pull the trigger bad
but i'm afraid, not of death, but reincarnation
all this bullshit over again, my heart still breakin
and my life still shitty and my head still cluttered
my near death experiences and the death of my mother
i wish some of those "near" ones would've been a little closer
anything, just anything, to make this life over...

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"I don't want to be deep... I want to feel deep and use that feeling to express depth itself..."
-Konchance

my poetry:
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