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Alcoholism

i run my corse...
& genetic force has my ora on all fours.
all my hatred i blame on a liquid source.
its not the norm. this storm has me so caught up.
swallow pride & drink hard; is how i was brought up.
since youth i came up, drinking on holidays.
which lead to entire days of drinking games.
paps always said it was more like a sport.
& to never move out, that hed always support.
soon came 04...july 4th, more coronas n henney.
all was good until it claimed our last penny.
nothing left but hugs n breath. so i got a job.
nearly seventeen, worked a minute & bought a dodge...
...dakota with a broken moter, i hated sober life.
wasnt long before paps signed away his wife.
& that was the end of that.

my habbits started again years later.
nineteen, a highschool grad & a yaught club waiter.
things were looking up, until i picked up a bottle.
began to consume in it, like a sean john model.
never thought i'd be an alcoholic like pap.
until that day i woke up in a hollister top.
i prayed & i prayed, "God, gimmie a break...
one more mistake & i let death decided fate."
as if it wasnt already at worst, paps died that afternoon.
for months in solitude, i lay wrapped in cacoon.
forever ruined, nothing to do but to resume the fluid.
this was destiny since birth, i already i knew it.
i cant complain much longer, my health is no concern.
theres no one in my life, so theres no one it can hurt.
cancer wont claim me, no one will.
ya think now i would quit... "nope, more refills".
latley the drinks have had soothing effect, making me moody.
i sit home all day, accompanied by beer & gangster movies.
the whole hood thing interested me some.
so i purchased a gun & picked up the liquor hit n run.
shit was fun for a minute, then i easily got bored with it.
so i schemed up plans to freely get me six civic.
i went down for GTA's, i couldnt even plead my case...
i was faded, its probaly why i was given 10,000 days.
& that was the end of that.

something quick. good luck Critic.