Ah I see.. What sect of buddhism would you consider yourself part of or your beliefs most similar to?

In zen (it's major Taoist influences not to be ignored), a man who awakens in the morning can die without any regret or second thought in the evening. Enlightening others is done by people going to them, not them going to people, and it would not bother them if nobody came to them. The great Taoist sages didn't even like teaching, because in fact they have nothing to teach. A buddha in zen actually has no purpose. The very essence of it is it is the religion of no religion. Sure, they DO teach but it is not their purpose.

There is a zen poem by basho that conveys it quite well.

Old pond,
frog jumps in
- splash

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