This is an old verse of mine, buh I like it, not for any particular reason. Feed is appreciated


I wish I could go back, to when my parents tried to give birth to me/
I woulda begged God, to put anyone else on this earth but me/
Cuz knowin what I know now, it's not worth it, i've got a bad destiny/
And I know it's only a matter of time, that Hell is comin next for me/
It woulda been easier on my parents, they wouldn'a had to raise a hooligin/
No wonderin 'Is he doin drugs?' or 'Is he cuttin school again?'/
And the shit I see in nightmares haunts me day to day/
It's like Satan is sittin there, waitin for me to fade away/
I've seen death with my 2 eyes, thought about murder with bare hands/
And when I look forward, I see exactly where Hell stands/
All but 2 feet infront of me, I stare blankly into the abyss/
Planned on bein a success, never thought it would end like this/
The devil's draggin me in, but I'm tryin to claw my way to god/
Cuz I've managed to hold strong to my religion, in a world where religion is odd/
But every day it's a struggle, God's there, but is he listenin?/
And my friends can't tell im hurtin, cuz on the outside i'm glistenin/
But inside that mask, lies a soul that was condemned a long time ago/
So I turn to this rap shit, turn my pains into hot rhymes n flows/
Drown my sorrows into this pad, but eventually the pen'll run out of ink/
And when that happens, Hell is the only place left for me to sink/

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