Why…mommy…why?...
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To witness an angel once so preciously protected inside my womb
I silently sneak into room as the sun dims her lights for the gloom
Glance at dressed-up dolls and I put aside her lovely pink socks
Gently stroke her blondish locks that dance in wind as she walks
Suddenly she utters a sigh followed by: "mommy, don't you cry..
I may not know why daddy isn't here but make those eyes dry"
The realization of biggest fears results into stream of salty tears
Now the inevitable question appeared after numerous quiet years
"Mommy, may I please ask you why daddy isn't around anymore?"
But how do I tell the one person I adore I have ditched his corps
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While I was nurturing you at home, 36 months after your birth
I realized my loving he wasn’t worth, too caught up in all his dirt
On a summer night in the midst where our passion would ignite
I grabbed my rusty, old knife and smile as his eyes fill with fright
Eagerly plunged it inside, savouring malignant murderous quest
Urge for blood, became obsessed, carved my name in his chest
Crimson liquid splattering on the walls as a beautiful decoration
An outlet for my growing frustration has ended in sour sensation
But maniacal frenzy suddenly converted into sense of remorse
Desire for revenge as my force arranged most powerful divorce
Quivering as I rest head in my hands, drops dripping on ground
Soothed by soft silence so profound when I hear an abrupt sound
Door slowly opens with a shrill creep as a little head tries to peep
“No Sarah, don’t come in and be quiet because Daddy’s asleep”
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Now still thank The Lord everyday for then turning her eyes away
So she could harmlessly play even though question would stay
“Why…mommy…why…?” constantly repeating inside my mind
But I can’t rewind the time and have no excuses to hide behind
As I gaze into her questioning blue eyes, my heart slowly dies
Filled with despise as I am forced to make her believe in my lies
“Everyone always asks why cutie but no one ever really knows
what has happened and so this just shows how funny life goes.”