sometimes this mind of mine drives me so nuts bro
used to get the dutch and stuff dro watch me puff slow
stuck froze
blazin wit the fam in the chill spots
spit it real hot like gangstas wit shanks and steel cocked
the pills popped
took us to the point of insanity
and gradually tore apart every part of this family
the damage be
the faith was lost to an eighth of the cocaine
left of us no brains then accepted to the dope game
no shame
lost track of homies that was once close
couldn't see through the fog thickness of the blunt smoke
one toke
of the wiggles we giggled and laughed dun
but certain people started actin jacked like an ass son
it's passed fun
when it turns ya boys to that shadiness
that crazy shit trippin like they took fuckin 80 hits
im sayin this
cause it's gettin hard to accept that
so many friends instead of moving forward stepped back
wrecked cats
lost all direction on this lifes journey
some ended stretched met death on a white gourney
lifes dirty
only few got they twisted heads straight
and like i just said the rest ended up as dead weight
a veg state
never ever gonna get to right they ways
but i made the right decisons seen visions of brighter days
and nights i pray
and i ask the lord please forgive my sins
i can't make it any farther my father im givin in
not innocent
i know im not that son they linked as prodical
but puttin down that drug and drink made my thinkin logical
hypnotical
the way i see im turnin out a descent kind
all together a better person speakin this piece of mind
releasin rhymes
let you people know all the facts of me
i know i spit the truth givin proof im not a wack emcee
im actually
just another man wit plans hopes and dreams
make a livin legally instead of handin dope to fiends
i know it seems
right now im talkin wit some softened flows
but im alive and walkin not dead inside of a coffin closed

feel me can ya can ya can ya feel me
the realness we bring it real gee
you'll see
our life and what it was and will be



every day im lookin at the life that i use to live
just to remind me how blind i was so god damn stupid kid
a loser kid
hangin wit the crowd that i insist was cool
but just another fool that missed out was always ditchin school
that shit was bull
i should have listened to the ones who kicked the knowledge
and id probably earn my ticket for a 4 yr trip to college
get them dollars
man i wish i traveled down that steady road
not have takin things so lightly now i fight wit heavy loads
but heaven knows
that this soul of god is workin hard and tryin
just to make difference wit persistance yo this heart aint dyin
i aint lyin
ima strive for every goal that ive been settin
ima rip on every stage wit a mic insight for checkin
cypha sessions
only spit the real son i come wit power
strikin down like lightning through nights of a frightning thunder shower
one day tower
finally make it where i always tried to be
risin to the top from the bottom due to sobriety