Absent

I'm not one to complain..so a shutup about my day..
nothing but inuendo making nicknames out of my name..
I never once thought about religion as nothing but offers..
I keep thinkin if there's a god..he isn't helpin he stalling
all the times I needed help..had nobody but myself..
I'm sick of all this threatening if I don't do this I go to hell..
well you can take me..put me to sleep and refrain to awake me..
all this conspirecy about ladies..who virgins but gave birth to a baby..
all this confusing isn't scary..I'll get my consiquenses later..
God threatening his so called creations he a dictator..
satan's doesn't exsist either..hell's just a room with a heater..
if It's true then if I die..I'm takin my life and repeat it..
I cut a knife and I'm bleeding..well thats's life I am leaving..
this Imprisoment I'm taking..and hating..someone who doesn't exsist..
if you religous I don't hate you..or neither tryna pursuade you..
but all this aggression I have and nobody to say to..
eternal damnation..hard to expect if he made you..and dradles..
from the jewish religion is like christmas and fables..
if I'm wrong thats my mistake..that I'm makin i'm made it..
I know I can't erase it..I made my bed I can take it..
but I have suspesions about the goverment..controllin it..
I mean they even used the metric systems you know how old it is..
Commanments are a list of mistakes..to list all your sins..
If the nigga is all around us..then where are you then?..
go and disolve me then..I'm sorry but I will just not fall in him..
these are my feelings and no magical figure can change it
there's no such things as right..so no visit can save it..
we recorded all our actions..the earth's makin isn't in a atlats
I'm sorry any god isn't in my classes..if he is forever absent..