Topic: Death Of A Loved One.

Monday May 5th 2003
(Verse)
My dearest Nan I never thought on this day we’d be parting,
I was wit a friends house me and our other friends were going to Lancing,

A bang on his door @ 08:30am my mom panicked and in tears,
She said hurry Tony it’s ur nan…then I knew it I had to face my fears,

We were at my place my step dad, my dad & uncle saw u rest,
Got the phone call to confirm…that u finally met death,

I went cold…my head froze like the ice age I didn’t feel the same,
All I could feel is my heart tear apart & me in an agonising pain,

I couldn’t comprehend my reaction no emotion but untold sorrow,
All I said was this ain’t fair…we burying Granddad tomorrow,

My tearducts were locked under key I wanted to but unable to cry,
That’s when I got asked to see you to say goodbye one last time,

I walked to ur house it felt like an eternity but u were only in the next street,
I nearly couldn’t make it to urs…I felt like I had boulders on my feet,

But made it dad, John & Uncle Barry stood outside in silence,
Dad cried told me to take my time I felt fear but showed it defiance,

Walked in the room and u laid there no oxygen mask on u looked like u sleepin,
I held ur hand and cried I jus wanted u to wake up and say it’s ok ur only dreamin,

But it was true u were cold not a movement losin you was truly unfair,
I kissed you’re forehead…and wished u well on ur new journey in a prayer,

Went to dads to tell what happened to my brothers and sisters,
They broke down I needed to hold them coz I could tell they were gonna miss-ya,

Bout 1pm I went home to face fact not said much I jus went to bed,
Played the com for a while to divert my pain but all I could think was is ur dead,

The Funeral
(Verse)
Times past and the pain has slightly eased I prepared for this for a while,
Tryin to stay brave for the fams hard when u can’t even fake a smile,

We parked outside the wrong undertakers 1st but found our way to you,
Mom said we’ll follow last I screwed I’m not gonna precede family she never knew,

We drove behind my dad I was satisfied coz u 2 were closer it helped,
Coz this was ur last journey and we were here to not let u do this yourself,

We got to the church and my eyes filled the place was like an over packed stadium,
My brain was in shock thoughts came in my mind it hurt my cranium,

I got out walked to the church and u were inside the coffin I was gonna carry ya,
But couldn’t me and dad were struggling to walk let alone carry ya,

The funeral began I was in the third row watchin not takin my eyes off the coffin,
So confused was I here or this sum dream cryin one sec then stoppin,

Then the curtains closed as they prepared to cremate you this was real,
If I could sell my soul to see u one last time I’d sign the deal,

Got outside broke down and dad held me but that weren’t what I wanted,
I needed u back even if it was to come back as a ghost at our home & u haunted,

At the wake we spoke of ur life u had mad respect from the community,
U did so much for hospitals schools and most I feel reflected on me,

Near the end we drank reminisced it’s when mom said u didn’t mind,
I said what do ya mean…she said pics of me and the kids were wit u inside,

Today September 6th 2004
(Verse)
Over a year now since you were taken but i think in a way it’s 4 the best,
Not in a bad way u had many problems wit ur heart and chest,

So many illnesses a doc once said u should be dead,
U proved him wrong for many years…prolly beat him 2 his death bed,

The pains eased but still there and will never go away,
Believe me too many vivid memories of you so my thoughts will never stray,

Even my son knows about you u’ll play an important role in his life,
Like u did in mine coz to me u aint died u jus live live through mine,

We even got a special page in the baby book for you and stuck down a picture,
I 1st saw it my girls surprise 4 me it only made me remember how much I miss ya,

See the pains gone for you now ur free and happy up there wit granddad & family,
I know 1 day we’ll re-unite and catch up on old times gladly,

But I know u watch me and keep me safe from beef and hard times,
That’s why I’m dedicating MY time for you solely in this rhyme,

Some things I miss the b/day cards & xmas cards wishin me health and happiness,
I hope u know I’m healthy and happy & I remember the good times when I reminisce,

Remember the chair u gave me wit the fox to sit on I still got that,
It’s still in mint condition and it’s sentimental values priceless infact,

So last 2 lines and jus letting ya know that u may be gone but not forgotten,
And I thank you for being there 4 me coz without u…my heart would prolly be rotten,

I miss you.