Gnawing at my nails ‘til I see the bloody quick
Thriving on the pain, finding glee in feeling sick
Teasing my arteries with the sharpness of silver blade
Reverting to reality, I can’t help but be ashamed

I’m frustrated and pushed beyond my limits
A nervous wreck yet to timid to admit it
I swallow razorblades and slit my wrists
With pills I’m falling apart...
Why try and fail when I can never start

All my life it’s been the same
Start it once but never finish
What is this existence I’ve created
The ghastly past I struggle to relinquish

I spit up blood when I’m speaking
Passing out with my brain leaking
Spilling my thoughts on the table
Read my mind, the charts say I’m unstable

Extended help is never present
So I’ve learned to no longer question
But instead, sit here and surrender
to the insanity that beckons forever

Hang myself with an extension cord
Impale myself with a five foot sword
Blow my brains out just cause I’m bored
It doesn’t matter, I'll just get ignored...

I speak but am silenced
Seek peace but am imbalanced
Without confidence, I feel worthless
Continuously dismissed, I am useless

I’m breaking pencil lead while writing
Breaking my own fingers when I’m typing
Banging my head on my desk ‘til my face is a bloody mess
Nothing less…I guess I must just be overstressed.