sometimes i gotta ask myself,
why tha fuck am i here,
i look in tha mirror,
i remember all four a my niggas dat got shot in my years,
my mom and dad leavin me for nothin,
no respect from friends,
bitches werent good for nothin,
but cheatin and fussin,
put my head down,
took tha bow,
asked god how,
howm i gonna make it in this city,
this world,
this life,
gettin shot at and ive been stabbed wit a knife,
closest man to me as a father already died,
found out my kid wasnt mine,
jus like every bitch ive been wit,
she cheated,
found out she was ridin sum1 elses dick,
then i got close to this chick,
since my hard past,
my anger rose real fast,
but i treated er like shit,
shit made me sick,
but she took me back,
thank u god,
shes the only thing keepin me back,
without her,
i kno im'a crack,
ive already been up in tha spital, (hospital)doctors given me meds and usin there utencils,
i was poppin shit that fucked with my head,
i wanted to be dead,
this life i dread,
was causin to much pain,
it was like acid rain tearin thru the feelin' parts of my brain,
this life has put me to shame,
i gave up on almost everything i had,
treated everyone around me much to bad,
but now im glad that i got my gurl and c.j.,
cuz i didnt wanna go out that way,
but i kept my head up,
even tho it was jus a little,
but my pride was to brittle,
ppl told me shit would work out,
but i was stuck in the middle,
of tha good and bad crews,
who knew,
i could find redemption in my freestyle,
i settled down to be mild,
i aint so wild,
just hope life gets better,
b4 my death certifacate gets filed.




yo w/b, jus wanna kno how it was, and if anyones wants to battle, pm me, and ill set it up for monday sumtime ight, peace