WHAT EYES CANT CONCIEVE

I seen it all up close- as pops broke your nose- a foul dose-of reqality graphically he’d impose-

Foul images I could never foget-beat us damn near to death- the irony is I wasn’t born yet-you lived with a regret-

But I saw through your eyes- how you survived- cause me if not you would of -died- tried- to take your own life- living in such strife- late at night one night with a knife you held tight-

but what hurt you hurt me- and you knew this- so walked this world persecuted- like JESUS and JUDAS-

I know you weren’t sinic- and believe my life would be nothing if your weren’t in it- how many times did our strength show when you changed your mind at the abortion clinic-

Ma I know daddy raped you im a bastard chilld- being defiled- only 3 months old in your womb and already in a world so vile-

But you did it though gathered up your strength- to leave that man understand life was to short to end its length-

Complications would fallow as the ambilicol chord chocked my neck- in the hospitol for hours praying to prevent my death-
I could here it asking god to switch our place- but understand ma you have to live in 2 months id see your face-be in your grace-

Then the thought cancer at birth-pops ciggarrets chain smoke I was becoming a tortured soul on earth-

Your heart pounding so vast- when your happy im happy but it would pass- in the past- I cried when you cried I could tell cause it would beat half as fast-

1 bedroom apartment roaches fighting fro scraps- you fighting for welfare but your pride fought back-

and I could tell it- just when you ready to say that it end this shit- I showed you the love I could and let out a kick-

I hate my father- aint even seen him yet but why bother-he wasn’t a man just a lover- not a lover but a demon undercover- punched 3 times in the stomach a man don’t do that to a mother- this the second time first time you killed my brother-

I hate him for that- as I learned more facts- mommies belly expanding time has elapsed- water collapsed-

Sept 14 16 hrs worth of labor -brought me to this earth but took you out I felt betrayed by our savior-

cause now Im a bastard with no family- taking away and denied was your life just to save me-

damn ma look at me now how I carry the name- and promice never again will you live that shame-

where you at is the best place there could be- surrounded by angels ill join you soon you’ll see.
AS FOR DADDY ...FUCK HIM-
he'lll never appreciate- the beauty and the price your life that a foul man could create.he'll just depriciate-

like gold with no luster-never feel the love insted the hate i can muster-