Coping With Amputated Legs

*Setting/Realization*
Lights flicker above my body, my eyes suddenly open to a wide space
I saw my face reflected in the bulb that died out, I can’t recall this place
Or which way I entered, I just seen four blank walls… a swinging ivy
Right beside me and this white bed, reason why I’m here? It might be
That the dream of me having an terrible accident has really happened
I told myself I wouldn’t drink last night, how many glasses did I hit?
I tried to forget and began to lift my body and felt restraints on my arm
Similar to the ones on insane patients, I had a few bruises slightly charred
Then my leg had a sudden itch, I shook the sheets off so I can get to it
When I glanced down..there was a wrap.. old blood had seeped through it
I felt my nerves jerk back and forth, at the bottom half of my missing limb
I wanted to get up and woke again, involuntary I screamed nurses can in
Grabbed my arms as I yelled “Let me go!” All I heard was my heartbeat
Some guy in a light-blue suit entered and gave me a shot giving me peace.

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*Leaving the Hospital*
I spent a week in that room, I was told the situation.. why my legs are gone
I thought of how I would never dance again.. how I can’t spend nights alone
Doctors gave the ok for me to leave, go to my house in a wheelchair tonight
From the original four-wheels I totaled in a horrible accident that one night
I can’t drive, my brother takes up my wheelchair wasting a good ten minutes
Just to take me home, another 15 minutes to set it back up like the beginning
I can’t open the door, I felt like a midget looking up to the door knob.. No reach
I have people waiting on me for just about everything, what’s life without feet
Every morning I awake to vigorous shaking because my legs still exist in spirit
And give me harsh seizures, more medicine given like clockwork to ease feelings
I can have to learn to jump on the countertop to get a clean glass just for a drink
...but I reminisce on the day that started it all, driving unconscious I can’t think
Of how and why a loving God would let me exist with such a cruel punishment
But then again I respect the fact I’m given a second chance so I’mma run with it
Lord tell me how do I go out in public again, He says “You have a testimony to tell”
I met the devil, the foot I put down to the pedal could have sent me straight to hell