This is my first post, so yea ima rookie- here it is tho

I got to make you feel this- without ticklin a nerve
I got to make you feel this- using these lifeless words
i dont know how im gonna do it wit this cheap ass pen
we all got imaginations---so imagine

Picture me tryin to spill my heart out, searchin for some relief
but gettin more frustrated starin at a blank sheet of loose leaf
I start a line, scratch it out so hard theres holes in the paper
dont use erasers- fold it up and then come back to it later
when later comes, i reach in my pocket and try it again
the fingers on my left hand beat out a anxious rhythm
I want you to feel what i feel, but youll never feel me
you will jus read what i write and live in my imagery
my eyes dart around lookin for clues to help me
while my foot steadily taps the floor to the sound of my heart beat
can you feel me? if only you could see my face
the emotion in this ink as i scribble on this page
the reality behind the letters i trace, leavin no space
margins are non-existant cuz a peice of my mind took their place
they say a pictures worth a thousand words
well, these words are worth thousands of moments
where i was tryin to force my innards out till i finally jus exploded
picture my pain, joy, sorrow, laughter, remorse, uncertainty and regret
tryin to break out of the dimminutive figures which contain them, restrained by the alphabet
like fat people in tight jeans, its bustin out the seams
i got to make you feel this, one day you will feel me

I know it needs to be better, but any feedback?