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My First Time
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this didn’t really happen to me, i just started writing it, it dosn’t ryme as much as i would have liked it too, but it has a meaning behind it..lemme know what ya’ll think aight...thanks...1!
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the smoked up room fills my lungs,
i hear your faded voice in the back of my mind,
you are saying something... but i don’t understand,
i am crying now, sitting on the couch...all alone,
scaired of what will happen to me,
wanting to go home,
but i cannot move, i cannot breathe,
i am beginning to think i cannot see,
i caugh abrubtly and the smoke rolls out,
i feel like i am flying..without a doubt,
what’s wrong with me,
now the voice i heard...i am beginning to see,
hearing colors and seeing sounds,
everything on the celing is now on the ground,
i’m freaking out and i still sit here,
for some reason i feel better now,
your voice is fading and i am comming down,
things from the celing, have returned to the ground,
i begin to stand up and wobble around the room,
the hazy smoke drifts and i walk out the house,
still hearing your voice, but now..it’s quit as a mouse,
i get home and take a glance in the mirror,
as i see my reflection , i realize what i have done,
my mom walks in, “you are way to young,”
i didn’t understand how to control myself,
it wasn’t my man i was hearing...
it was someone else,
bruises on my body,
i must have blacked out,
the last thing i remember was sittin on the couch,
15 years old, high as grass,
i didn’t actually think some guy would use me for ass,
i couldn’t control myself,
and now im pregnant with a baby,
by someone else,
the hardest part is to tell your man,
“i went to a party, and got raped in a van.”