im physically light headed in this crisis heading from head on
i never meant wrong, but my way with words isn't so head strong
not to mention that im a joker eclipsing a fool's paradise
only thing spanning wide is my humiliation like a tanning hide
this heaven sent creature with spanish eyes should have run
but then stayed to embrace a face only a mother could have loved
she stood above the rest of her peers in mind and appearance
shined with mere thirst that always had me fighting for clearance
access is denied untill i find the keeper asleep on the switch
i dream of wading the mist, i only breathe for this one wish
of encountering this sun's kiss, to make you learn this lesson
from the pits of my raging heart, i have this burning question
but its never to venture the lonely bridle path to your eardrums
i hear one's, it seems cupid upgraded artillery to a spear gun
to give me a change of heart, maybe, but life's a come what may
from the day i lost the reins, this mistress's got me spun what way?
impossible now for me to cut to the chase, im stuck in this race
puffing and blowing on my face, im not going no-where in haste
these emotions are at waste with this female, a devil incarnate
i feel like the drop in the bucket, thats chucked into far space
and bar it from escape, a faint heart never won the fair maiden
have a field day in my pain as i have no-one to spare grace from
lampooning me in excuses, "your useless", throwing my milestones
beyond the point of bygones being bygones, treating me vile dawn
i cant even smile no more, melancholy is my home away from home
i was flown from where hope begins to grow and lakes tend to flow
but that was a no win situation, i feel joy at the 13th heaven
where the truth is unstreched and where working is pleasure
and where lurking depression swallows your own pride for you
i take a shine to this new living where bad luck hides fortune
the meek shall inherrit the earth, yea but not untill the rebirth
the end welcomed me with opened arms and sold me its own t-shirt
railroaded into this red letter day remembered for wrong reasons
im sorry for this unwanted breath, im in my element upon leaving
the point of fleeing made me feel like the upper crust of the lowest
everything i touch is broken, but out here i have much to focus on
im unforgiven in this mystery, so i watch how the clue writes
the odd man out wonders how much he could conduct with two kites
two rights make a behind, not one soul heard my damn swan song
whats wrong? all i wanted to do was go out in a blaze........before im gone