Down at the Cemetary in my hand the Obituary of all of my fallen family members that died this year already/

In my mind my ex girl acquaintance I think to myself maybe you'd still be here if I had'nt lost my patience/

My brother charles thou art in heaven, If it wasn't for your still-birth maybe you'd live to see seven/

Years old, Years Cold, It might take me years to realize how my life's told/

Unfold certain mysteries about my past, but they clear up fast like fallen ashes from the hash/

I smoked marijuana, unsafe sex and drank liquor before its rights, This also could be the reason for all my sleepless nights/

Wakin up in cold sweats loss of breath, Maybe this is just God tellin me I might be next/

Two weeks till my twenty first birthday the time's goin quick, Sometimes I look at my Schick and wonder if one slit could end my life quick/

Suicide, Homicide, Inside Outside these thoughts all flowin through my mind/

Deep felt feelings with no one to tell, Even God's against me, One more wrong move I end up in hell/

Life's my jail cell, Bread and Water, Why do people now call me a 21st Century martyr/

Lie and cheat, The rest defeat, cause no one cares whether I'm great in life or deceased/

But Time will tell in this War goin on in my mental institution crammed in my head/

With a straight jacket wrapped so tight I'm losin circulation I'm turnin red/

Breathe is fadin now will you miss me/

Or will you be another in the world that dismisses me?/

If you choose so let it be/

Cause I dont wanna be on this Earth no more God just let me free/

Good Bye

THAT WAS SOME NICE AND "DEEP" SHIT PLAYA...
I WAS FEELIN THAT THRO AND THRO... ANYWAYS MAN,
I HOPE YOU REALLY AINT PLANIN ON KILLIN YO SELF...
THAT AINT EVER HELP NUTTIN DUDE,
HOLLA,
A.T.

yea ^ wut he said

Heavy shit man, i feel 4 ya had a rough year 2... thought about suicide but fuk man aint worth it...

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HOLLA,

that was some deep shit keep it up

uppin this piece...wow no replies from my fam?

Was really feElin this dawg, the flow and vocab were hott: the added reality of it made it even better!

we should collab sometime, Pm me or hit me up on AIM

Aight bro. Hot piece. Comes str8 from the heart. Theres this girl I love her alot, and Iv'e wanted to kill myself ova her. But, I thought bout it and rap is my life , and my career. I aint killin my self ova no chick. My point is no matter how bad life treats you, always push through it becuz god repays you. Juss think bout the good times if any, don't worry man. Like Pac says. Keep ya head up.

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Hot shit bmack. You said I "stole" you idea, but its funny considering my "Suicide Note" was posted on this shit, before you posted this lol. And I posted it at my other board over 2 months ago, so don worry, I didnt bite yer idea. But I did like this. It was deep. I like deep ish, so keep it coming.

*Waves* Hi I'm fam
wasnt feeling the format but i was loving the content....i guess i underestimated you playa
*cheers and walks away*

Shit was raw, I was feelin it. iIhope youre not really gonna do that though, you too cold to die. Keep writing, all your negative emotions can be let out in positive ways.

Thanks for the input...i wasnt really gonna commit suicide...i was just feeling like all the shit inside me wouldve came to it but i got alot to live for ...still uppin..thanks for the replies..my bad..dgree...about the topic steal that was mighty bitch made of me...my b dawg..no hard feelings thanks for the upp