The Day I Die

Living my life day to day and oblivious to whats coming next
Flawed in all aspects, all my actions served just to gain respect
Mindlessly Walking on my block, just another day like the rest
Suddenly im staring down a glock, like im staring straight at death
My body’s frozen but my mind thinking like its never done before
A lifetimes thoughts in a split second in time.. I wish I had more
Full of hate and Cold malice as he holds his weapon and sniggers
After he pulls that trigger, what’s next becomes to hard to figure
It comes down to, does heaven really exist?, or is life just a dream?
All false, I never tried to resist to see things only as they seemed
Still unable to grasp, All these opinions but still no solid facts
Trying to search within myself, and use my mind as a map
Under attack, with all these questions but there’s no time to ask
Insecure, I was never real just lived my life under a mask
Living aimless, all I saw were the obstacles and not the right track
Wondering when this life ends will my soul be coming back
But Its faith I lack, I saw no straight path, just a tunnel right to hell
Dealing in evil, the currency of death, like I had souls to sell
Its too late I can tell, my fate lies where only the devils dwell
The bullet fell, the trigger is pulled and pistol smoke fills the air
End of despair the screams r gone and I lay there as if nobody cared