removed from my home by an invited invader
not a slayer but a random incident raider, my income creator

baby's mama and my daughter 600 miles away now, lost in thought all day now, gotta return to my seed but how, worry creases my brow distraction isn't allowed.

little by little i fall apart, farther away from the start like a ship with no chart, build stone walls around my own heart, turn dispare into art.

new surroundings seem astounding, anticipation has my pulse pounding, strange sounding but true in the background i hear my concious hounding..

"don't forget, don't give up, remember your blood everthing passes to dust"

impermenance is like a gift to me, new things to feel new faces to see, none of it's real it's like a game to me, suddenly free i forgot who i be

surrounded serenly by jittery gladness doppleganging the sadness enjoy the rush of madness

"don't forget, don't give up, remember your love everything passes in lust"


it's like i have no home, no love and no seed, like i'm unexpectantly freed, like a wound that won't bleed

distant memories serves fuzzy pictures of me, with wife a brand new life a sapling family tree, but where are we?

"don't forget, don't give in, remember your love it all passes through mud"


startled from sleep by dreams of infidelity, did i really let the moment envelope me, or am i alone and sad but still whole, i feel like i stole, guilty feelings unroll, no heart just a hole

i can't remember, i just forget

just forget it

feedback please. i am trying to turn this into a song. it's all true gritty shit too.