Selfish Subtleties:

Selfish subtleties,
the death the life of my love.
Pride is my fuse,
lighting my timebomb anger noose.
Jealousy was killing me,
now i break the ropes around my neck.
Sever the tether holding me back,
but i will fight through as i always do.
You can't hold me down,
we're too strong now.
Erasing hindering emotions,
first off trying to distinguish confidence from pride.
The flip the evil side,
and being selfish applies,
to the impatience of pride.
Evil things inside,
causing too much grief,
pulling in too much grit.
After that you might believe i'm always smiling blindly,
the truth is the underlying beauty has me smiling wildly.

I love her i don't
she loves me she won't
I keep trying not to but words leap out my throat
Can't make up my mind walkin this unorganized mile
All i know for sure is i want you as my own
To put her in my arms is the only thing i feel for
not to go back to the way it was before
Sometimes you need to take chances,-
and stick to your choices
even when you can't feel your strength all you feel is you're worthless
You squeek and you stammer you're squashed then your hammered
And all you thinik about is how much that one mattered
Please don't regret this,
I gave you my heart in an attemp to change this
You're wrong if you don't think that
You're wrong if you don't change it
Thinking of you brings tears to my heart
That's the only reason i want us to be apart
Haven't been sleeping or eatin
My thought's never ceasing
My mind keeps on leaping
And i'm lost within this icy cold season
This one time i knew my love was really true
For all the right reasons i fell in love with you
So why can't it work out like i long for it to
My God my God why have you ransomed off my love
Brought it down to this push and the shove
I pray and i pray, why won't you send me my love
I pray and i pray, you just look down from above
I pray and i pray, please don't lead her astray
I pray and i pray please Lord make today the day
that she remembers him so much, but love's him so little
I think i've said everythin i've needed to say
except darling please, please walk away
Follow your heart let it lead you to me
If you don't remember me like i think of you
I'm very sorry for this poem, it's just my brain's stew

Remember Nights alone they seem so many years ago
Waiting for the sun to rise
You crying on the phone
Days when you would cry I stood by your side
Nights when i couldn't keep myself inside
Parties that we had, fires outside
Every song is ours like the dance floor at the bar
Breakfast at the Busy Bee
And the summers that we shared
Walking the stores pretending
Soup when the weather wasn't kind
Sleeping next to you and dreaming
Waking up to find you gone
To taste that sweet kiss
Feel your soft skin
Lay in your glow
See you smile again
I'm in a stupor when I gaze into your brown eyes
Wallow in the sweetest person i've ever known
Wrap my arms around you swallow you whole
If I didn't truely need you, understand you wouldn't know me
Or know me like you do
My mind beset with remeniniscence of the past
The most important individual in my world
My confidant, my best friend
I probe your thoughts as if they were your body
I succumb to you, as I run my hands down your side
Glide through your hair
Whisper in your ear
I taste your entirety as i streak across you with my tongue
Look into your eyes, I suffer your passion
Connect as I smile, See all my love
In you i see all i am missing
Everything I want