How I would Kill Myself

First, I feel the cold of the chrome, set to my dome, ready to take it back and blast, my heart is so alone/
Lonely, and unholy, the death of myself, was totally, unsoley, commonly confused with suicide, but not only/
Cause no matter how much I look at myself in the mirror, it feels like I can see your lies, but at the same time, I could trust you because of your beautiful eyes/
I neva felt betrayed, brain felt delayed, couldn’t process shit, so I neva got my work done, so I neva got payed/
I think to myself with a tear in my eye, what happened to us, the same question, but with why/
These are all of things that flash before my eyes before I die, tell her I loved her, no matter the high/
Then I fall to the floor and feel my last feelings ever, look around the room, and think to myself,….. Fuck it, what ever!/

Next attempt I try it involves a blade and the shower where I bathe, this was said many times, this life could have been saved/
But how would we know, we wouldn’t even go, there weren’t any signs, it was like I, myself was a no show/
Then I felt the steel pierce into my flesh, I tried to heat it up, that way it would work best/
There would be no wait, it would go in quick, but damn! I neva realized skin could be this thick/
It seemed like forever before it went through, I didn’t wait for shit, especially not for you/
The shit seemed long awaited, ill fated, the way I felt, the shit I had plan, was scratched off cause it was neva dated/
Neva marked down, neva taken into a note, I was told to what felt best, what ever did float my boat/
Now I see red, fills up the water, my heart beats faster, quicker and harder/
I finally feel nothing, all that was there is now gone, I shall live no more, from dusk till dawn/

Finally, still made it through, the other sides just not ready for you know who/
The tightening of the millions of threads threaded together, I would soon feel around my, the last feeling ever/
I made this quick, posted up a chair, looked around the room, saw different glares, reflections of the same stare/
No one noticed me gone, notice I neva came out, I guess I wasn’t really important, its time I must leave now/
Kick the wooden piece of art from under my feet, I felt the rope around my neck, tightening, killin me/
Then there was all red, felt my neck crack, my spinal cord dislocated from my head to my back/
No more pulse, finally my hunger was fed, I feel like a rose in the winter, soon I was dead

People, please leave an honest opinion on this. I really want to know what ya'll think about it. And this is just something iI did for the hell of it. It will never be involved in my life. Peace!

yo dawg if ya need to talk holla back man .........NO ONE PICK ON THIS DUDE !!!!!!!!HE'S ON THE EDGE LOL

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its good poetry im not sure it would make a good song tho, ive delt with depression and shit and i know those thoughts go through more then just my mind... thats why i like to rhyme let that shit out, plus better to rap on shit when you all pist off thats why we Rap Battle, not Rap Love

No more pulse, finally my hunger was fed, I feel like a rose in the winter, soon I was dead

that is a madd quotable right there...i felt the verse...a couple lines wernt that great..but just a couple...i mean like..2...3 at the most....but i liked it a lot..kind of depressing...but thats what life is...in my oppinion....I'm a tough guy to please...and you pleased me with that verse...you used a lot of multis...but it didn't cram your lines...everything fit perfectly...stay up homie

2 fingas 1 love

holla

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Time is not long, and indecision is hells cemment. So the well is rented, untill heaven is relevant. Untill then, to be eloquent, sex cells, so le'ts cellibate.

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Yo! Thanx for all the feedback people! I jus wanna see what other people got to say on this shit, so let me know how u feel bout this. And this shit aint a real suicide note or anythin like that. This is jus shit I wanted to put down. So holla back at me with shit. Peace!