Light Switch

I'm stuck constructing the path to an unknown destination
breaking through barriers, terrified at what I seem to be facing
my mind racing, I move elusivly yet make my presence known
I start pacing and figure that my final oppurtunity is fully blown
I've been shown the path of the wise, yet I falter to my demise
I may have grown within this life, but Still I can't seek what I find
I seem blind to the scenario's deeper purpose, yet drawn to its core
the grand design of my search's accomplisment has me seeking more
I lose what I store in thoughts yet I readily plan to remove what I seek
the mind of a genius breaking laws of physics, remaining stealthily unique
My future is bleak, but I continue my struggle, finding it hard to give up
the suture leaks, and I can find that my spirit is more than just fucked
I ducked the punch's of life, but I still feel their effervescent affects
they pluck at my thoughts and tell my emotions to remain incorrect
I sit and subject my brain to unoriginal forms of subconscious torture
my rigid personality persuades my thoughts to continue growing courser
My hearts the enforcer, dragging me into depths of the mind unexplored
I dart through mentality seeking the knowledge of those who came before
I was born into the dark reality that is the world as we see it today
cursed to adorn the stark falicy with pride and delve into the deep gray
of the random decisions I make which complicate the rest of my life
but I feel at ease in this situation, and I have just found the light...