Screams of torturous tighting muscles unleashing strain
Constant pain and only tha head of tha house to blame
She couldn't refrain from each curse werd she exclaimed
Body covered in a wet substance that wasn't rain~~~

And so it starts...from one day until tha end
Nothing but hollow suffering would excrete from within
Not getting my toy...juss being a boy..mom drinkin wit friends
Slaps and angry tones heard after tha lights would dim~~~

Never knowing whut a dream was or tha meaning of faith
Nightmares carried over from tha nights to tha days
Tha only moments of peace lasted till tha last second of when I'd pray
Then open my eyes to a below average grade and recieve tha end's result's rage
Ever known whut its like to have tha hate uncaged?
Of course you do...everyone stands in tha opposite of love's way
So therefore we wouldn't have to switch our place
Across these states to put these emotinal situations in our face~~~

Because thats how we've learned to face infinite torture
Even if we were alone and followed tha steps of Tom Sawyer~~~

By running away from tha problems before we can solve them
If I ever saw one man eternally happy I would rob him~~~

So he could understand why I'm looking at this planet tha way that I am
Thru tha eyes of this man who seems to always have sumpthin foil tha plan~~~

Age of 24 and I still seem to get dirty Young and No one wants me
To young for a Mid-life crisis...as every werd from my life seems to haunt me
It seems I can't follow tha church creed....children always seem hungry
And I can't obtain enough money
Only a short time till no one will longer loves me
A day with skies of grey and my family won't hug me
All I can do is look to tha skies above me
Ask Jesus Christ why our world is so ugly~~~

Then I meet tha unearthly silence
So now where do I look when I need this guidence?
Which goal should be first on my list?
Wuld I be tha best father I can be to my kids?~~~

A question never answered in one lifetime
Our kids won't be 'fully grown' on tha day of our life's last shine
"ASK AND YE SHALL RECIEVE"...but where do I find
this guideline to make tha most out of this breath of mine?~~~
Then tha answer hits me...a light at tha end
It DOES have to do with tha only person thas with me.....tha solution is found from within
I CREATE MY DESTINY
I CHOOSE TO LIVE WITHOUT PAIN
I ended up smiling fer tha first time in too man damned days



PEACE

HAD TO VENT

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