im lookin for tha right path... lookin for tha right purpose...
but i find myself layin alone at nite hurtin...
tha life that i live should be something im proud of...
but theres just somethin missin and i aint even talkin about love...
im not sure wat it is or where to find it...
but i alwayz miss out on things in life and i wanna rewind it....
i wanna go bak to tha days where i didnt feel emptiness...
but now im constantly reminded by wat they tempt me wit...
sometimes im restless... i cant grasp wat i feel is vacant...
but in this game of life.. im beginning to doubt that ill make it...
beginning to think that itz over... everything ive worked for...
and now i try to think if i could ever be worth more...
i wanna be so much but itz too much to amount to...
and theres alwayz some1 special that u wish was thinkin about u...
but life is never perfect... ull never achieve wat u expect...
but im searchin for watz next... tryna depict through words of respect...
tryna fill that hole in my chest... tryna live for something of meaning...
wanting to succeed in all aspects of life... but i guess im just dreaming...
wanting to be something i can be proud of... knowing that i make a difference...
knowing that whenever i speak... everybody turns and listens...
look into tha heart of a lost creature thatz tryna find his way through every obstacle....
but this barrier that im trying to break is beginning to seem unstoppable...
im beginning to believe that my world is ending.. tha life that i live is vague...
and that tha soul of this lost soldier is going to die at a young age....
i find myself on my knees crying... on tha verge of dying...
praying to tha lord that when im gone jesus will find me...
if he even exists... i pray that my life will not go to waste...
i want them to know who they see everytime they see my face...
i wanna make a great impact on this world that we call our home...
but if theres so many ppl that "love" me then why do i feel so alone?...
the answers seem non-existant... and theres no1 there to set me straight...
and theres probably nobody listenin'... but god wont even let me hate...
my brain has been tortured... ive thought about every possibilty...
of life... and death... and nothing ever even seems real to me...
wat do i do? tha answer to that is something that i dont even know...
cuz my soul is beginning to show tha darkness shown by a demons glow...
but he must know... tha God we all trust has to know where my path leads...
why is it that we're left on our own... just to find out wat his wrath brings...
we cant control our life... so no decision i make will ever change my destiny...
but mabie theres something more for me later... and right now hes testing me...
i just cant handle it.... sometimes i wish death upon myself...
i know itz wrong... but i guess itz b-cuz i cant find tha right help...
im just so unsure... so confused about wat life is to bring fa me...
and i give it all up to music... so im living in a symphany...
every lyric i spit... is one more feeling that rests in my heart...
but mabie these feelings have been tha answers to my test from tha start...
but im TIRED... tired of everything... i wanna just leave this place...
but before i go... i need to achieve something so i can leave wit grace...
wat that thing is... is something i dont know but i will continue to try...
and even if i find it... i wont know wat ive lived for until tha day that i die...

i need honest feed back.....
V.T niggas........

whats good no feed back...........

damn i.e. this was deep.emotion was there and it flowed well.
keep em comin'

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I'm like CHUCKy dyin' to live in the flesh free of the BATTERY,
ASSAULT n ROBBERY rapidly,wishin' cupid would clap at me
N lift this evil spell so I can experience happilly evil backwards-see(down there)
EVIL............backwards =............LIVE

upp'in................................