allrite this poem is reallllllly long but i promise its worth the read and i won 500 for it .. so much aprreciation to those of you who take the time to read it and tell me what you think much luv


-X-LIGHTNING PREVAILS-X-

never thought you’d put me in this predicament
but you don’t realize what your doing
unknowingly pushing me away found a rejection that I thought impossible
I lost details within this individual fight you only cover the surface data
I’ve grown tired of trying to explain, im tired of forgiving
I want you to forgive me for all the things I never did
all the things I never did wrong, all the things I forgive you for
I wish you would understand I need you to understand
but you don’t, I cant get through to you, can’t force the impact
I feel it so strong, gravity pushes me down, you don’t your heads up in the clouds
so far away from reality although we’ve had our fights
I remember the nights when we fought, and the clouds would release their tears
on those nights sitting on the roof I felt protected from the storms drizzle
I felt closer to you so far up in the clouds we were both half way
those rainy days are so oblivious now I can only hear the thunder
I shudder when I hear it rumbling so far but its force so near
its foreshadowing the chaos that is yet to come
now I crave the rain, it now seems so soothing
It seems the rain is just foolish, foolish fights and all pride
no content, no nothing, it’s clearly irrelevant
frequently I am driven farther from you
at this standpoint the thunder is near
I know the lightning will strike soon
when it comes I wonder if you will be surprised
if you will feel the impact, or if you will even care at all
I know that its coming, it’s been approaching for a while now
It’s just a matter of time, time until I am no longer naive
when I come off from the roof, and its protective covering
when I stop dreaming of other things, such as dishonorable addictions
and realize what I truly want is to be safe, safe from the harm
that is yet to come, when I realize that independence is a stronger value
when the thunder, roars and the winds desperate, so intentional yet subtle
that is when the lightning will strike, and it will prevail with sorrow,
sorrows of yesterdays to come, and forgiveness so broad
then will u awaken from your sleep, and realize that maybe
just maybe, you will remorse all the times u didn’t notice,
Didn’t notice anything at all, through all the oppression,
through all my oppression, and heartache, through all the times
I had given up trying, and forgave trying at all with guilty circumstances
I always thought you so innocent or maybe ignorant,
I still do, maybe that judgement is harsh, or just what I want to believe
but innocent is like that rain, ignorance is the fact you couldn’t hear the thunder
it kept me up many nites, wondering why it won’t change,
wondering why I can’t be more like you, so callow,
it use to be that way for me, as it still is for you,
Although the lightning is sure to strike at any given moment,
I still have my regrets and my worries, maybe it will go back to the sunny days
of lying upon the grass, with the hot sun upon our faces,
I once heard someone say, if you love something set it free,
if it is truly yours it will return, wish I could agree,
because you so stubborn to beliefs, and I so naive,
that even if I had let my love go, and it did return,
nothing would change, or maybe I just tell myself that incase,
incase you don’t return and I am left, here alone, in a great storm,
wishing we were still halfway, with all regrets,
however I know that this thunder is irritated and the lightning impatient
so I know what chaos is yet to come,
but at this point I wish I could settle with those rainy days,
the ones I remember so cautiously,
the ones then were so hurtful,
and now are so phenomenal,
I feel much regret, I know I will never forget,
the rainy days and all their pride, and I will despise the clouds,
for keeping you prisoner, keeping us worlds apart,
but most of all, I will regret not being able to communicate,
to communicate any thing at all

thanks!
-x-sendin luv-x-
-0-babyG-0-