i wrote dis shit las night, but it got deleted cause of da cunstruction shit, its a lil diffrent cause i didnt memorize wat i wrote, dis is fo' my fatha, n e one else whos dad was abusive den left em w/ out a trace u'll lik dis shit.....

Dear Dad,

Im writtin to, ta let u kno dat i aint fallin frum dese bouldas/
shit, u left us standin alone in da rain, da wourld on my shouldas/
i was only a kid back den dad , couldnt do nuthin but hold us/
u took off dat night wit ur bitch, if u were a man u'd a told us/
memories a befo' u lef, u drunk hittin my motha and me/
i jus guess u couldnt see, da man i wuld grow up ta be/
u started it , planted da seed, now i'm cuttin down da tree/
afta da fire,me holdin my my ma and bro, standin ova da debree/
rememba u tellin ya friends i aint lik u, but bitch u not lik me./
afta u lef ma was depressed, and ta raise ur son, my brotha/
got inta sum bad shit, became hated by my own motha/
even though i built dis family, couldnt seem ta do nuthin right/
there i was empty beer in my hand, cryin alone in da night/
its lik da war still aint ended, gotta continue fightin dis fight/
man u coulda been a real fatha, helped keep my future bright/
all alone against da world, aint no story, dis is my real life/
a 7 year old , stealin bread in da store, ta fil my brothas hunga/
gav it ta my ma,and bro, didnt tak n e thin cause he was younga/
hadnt eatin fo' days, starvin lookin fo' at least a crumb/
despreate fo' anythin, thinkin bout eatin my thumb/
started blackin out, goin crazy, my body soon became numb/
salvagin sum clothes at good will, i was basically a bum/
all because u culdnt handle da heat, couldnt be a man/
if i eva see ur fagget ass, best belive u gettin my back hand/
i've had hatred in my body, its now sunken in my brain/
dont eva botha cumin back, r i'll buy u a ticket bac ta da train/
fuck dat, "lik father lik son", cause bitch we aint da same/ this is me now, alone n da corna chuggin my lif down my througt/
shit is pathetic, in winta we so poor, cant afford a fuckin coat/
mama's w/ a new man now, me and my bro i aint got no one/
we alone day and night, lookin inta an empty moon and sun/
but da Lord has shown me his son, kept me liftin da gun/
i neva be lik u, if i mak a promise 2 my family, i hold it til da death/ was unda wata, my childhood, but now i'm lettin out my breath/
see i gotz my own family, not blood but my tru 10 friends/
them and God hav helped me up wen i fall, ova and ova again/
all those dawgs, hav helped me raise this fucked up family im in/
still theres a hole in my heart, since da night dat u bailed/
eva since u took my freedom, my life has been derailed/
i've neva followed n e one, shit i mak my own damn trail/
now when i say dis shit i aint lyin , i'm bein totally true/
4m age 5 ta 14, raised a fuckin family, and did it wit out you.......