ANGRY and UPSET

[angry]
why did i waste so much time
man im stupid
should have known better
coulda put so much more energy
into somethin a little better
the weather is cold
and its constantly raining
times with you are getting old
girl you know what im saying
sometimes i wish my life would just end
i cant handle the bullsh!t and drama
while not havin any friends
i wish i could go back
to fix some steps that i took
now im here trapped and
this girl has got me straight shook
i wanna get out
im trapped and i got no where to go
i should have never got involved with this fukkin girl

[upset]
why did all this happen? am i the one to blame?
or am i just a victim of trynna maintaine
and failing
lord tell me
why do i always gotta screw things up?
its like my whole life has been filled with no luck
im stuck
sometimes i wish that i would just die and go away
what can i say
i cant live my life with this pain everyday
its gettin past the point of no return
and i think im gettin scared
i should have let myself
tell her how much i really cared
i couldnt though, i wouldnt let it come out
and now shes gone
shouldnt have been so scared to feel love
now im alone
i never had someone that just wanted to know how my day went
all she wanted to know is how my time was spent
but im so emotionally distressed i couldnt open up to her
why is it only when we fight is when i feel in love with her?