My life is shit and that is how i made it,
I abused my rights and i did it very blatant,
Ignorant i often stole from the hand that feeds me,
The same person who Raised and conceived me,
Why do i do this GOD, lie, Steal and break shit,
I stole money , credit cards you name it i steal it,
From your car, house or your slumped body i mugg in the street
Im a fuckin loser , I stalk People i pray on the weak,
I delt drugs, wire taps got a phelony to prove it,
Was this Gods Plan for my life and me to Ruin it,
Is he laughing that i fucked up and chose the route of that temps me
If god forgives then why do i still feel empty.
My family resents me my friends have vanished
Should i panick or remian a kelpto thtas been banished
Redeem my self or say fuck it and end up in jail,
Im sorry Mom and Dad for putting you through hell
I tried to kill my self to end the suffering and pain,
They brought me back they said i almost severed the vein,
Put in rehab and padded rooms for 6 months,
I got out and in 3 i had the urge to steal stuff,
Nothing learned nothing gained and still stupid as fuck,
Gone to court been arrested and for what a couple bucks,
The fact my family's not poor only makes it worse,
I had people in my town wantin me in a hearse,
For bein a nobody the neighborhood theif,
I cant beleive this is my plan my future seems Bleek,
I could redeem myslef but the past needs to be forgotten,
They say God forgives then foget the time's i was rotten,
Forget im a criminal and just plain stupid,
Show me the light and the right way to do shit,
I was fine as a kid then went wrong at 14 years old,
It was the year i started drinking and smokin weed and grew cold
I grew a chip on my shoulder and hated the world i was grown up by 15
Didnt pay attention dropped out of school and became a coke feind
Should i blame the drugs no i blame myself
3 years have passed and im in great health
I found a girl who likes me for myslef
Who told me the past is the past and The future is ahead of us
Meeting my Girl and A car crash made me see that i was ignorant
I should have chose the right path and neva been hesitant
If you work hard and do the right thing, God will still love You
My family forgave me and told me it was ok what i did
Your Our son and we love you is what they told me
This is the test im waiting for to so if God Really Forgives
I will show him i can do it and stat focused and Crime free
I gotta make my own living and paid my family back
It took an accident and a Great girl to put me back on the right path
I still smoke weed work and got my GED
Not bad for being a loser with no Hopes and Dreams
Got a kid on the way and My own place it makes me laugh
That all those years of stealin all i had to do was Bust my ASS
God thank you for showing me the light
If i kept going who Knows i might have lost my life