i was at near bottom/people would try 2 cheer me up, but i didnt care that i never got-um/
stared into space scar'd and hurt across my face, of hurtful days happyness w/o a trace/
glare into my eyes empty there, aint fair, how can i love if i dont care/
built sorrow deep inside my sad lil sole/digg'n deep 2 find my past but its like a endless hole/
i bring myself 2 tears 2 see if it drips out/like thoze words on my tounge juss wont slip-out/
stationary disbeliefs of hatr'd 2 my own self/im the lonly kid, like the dusty books on the shelf
date back 2 when what i had was happy/grab me juss 2 shake me, still lifeless wen u slap'd-me/
why was my happiness turn'd opposite/im wat happens wen opposite's retract, and blow 2 shit/
im broken kid wit pieces 2 prove-it/i cant do it,excuses 2 get my life goin and move-it/
im only kid wat do i need wit hurt-feeling/stealing hope, juss 2 process my lifes healing/
process 2 succes is only a matter of rest, and throwin bad memories of my chest/
irratate me 2 a certain state/and il snap cuz build up been pacin at incredible rate,2 end ya fate/
i blame myself if u think'n i was playin games/shit, notin more 2 be smile in everyone of those picture frames/
instant kurruption, take's out all my tragic waste/like the waist of chix after lypo suction/
temperature hit' 2 sick 2 be ILL/still i move around, decid'n 4 life, or a knife 2 kill/
tears of sadness run down my cheek/would life be ez'r if i was nothin more the lonely geek/
popularity, is like un wanted publicity rid'n ass's of stalk'd celebrities, who soaks in there own pitties/
ramblin along with nothin 2 show/grow old, wen young, reazon unknow, but i wannna know/
my future is a step in the wrong direction/only way i make things right is 2 crrect my imperfection/
quality insults r the only way i staul comebacks from childish faults/
i depend on my indpendece/2 resemble my own resemblence, show my full lov'd rememberence/
brutally attack my aim'd target/take orders from voices in my head like orderly sargents/


Chorus**

is life reach'n is point of end/sharpin images show ive miss'd the trend/
will i ever grow 2 my full self esteem/
redeem, wat i had pull myself 2gether as a 1 man team/
somebody will step up and show me the way/
cuz i care 4 them and ill listen 2 every wurd they say/


WAT IF I FOUND U*

wat if bullshit is my past ur here now stand'n in my path/
ur beauty blows me away, but u stand lifeless wit no pull back a no wurds 4 me 2 stay/
why we has somethin sure it was small/but u kept me on my feet and help me from my lifes fall/
but u juss gave up on me and wat i gave/lik'n livin wit out love i'd rather be a slave/
gurl i found u ur my hopes story/wen i think of u i cry like the song "new found glory"
charish, you but careless 2 u cuz ur takin, its like i juss parish'd 2 u/
ur like my medice 4 my hurts/u where the thread patch'n my wholes in my lives shirts/
out of bounds, cant bounce out of was i fell so deep 2 my knees wit blood ounces 2 hard 2 count/
seeing death so scary i felt like hell/still trap'd in my shadow's shell/
but i believe u can crack-it free/believe me ur th one no other can be/
juss the site wows me/but playin me, wat thats still astound'n me/
can clown me/ but i still wont frown on u, cuz we got somethin i want 4 have/
take a bath in my tears/2 wash my histaric 2 get happiness 2 see if opposites attract/
prsent as blown over but fate, show'd up late, but paved the path start'n at loves gate/
all i ask, is 4 u 2 guide me, i luv ya gurl, make me happy 4 u juss be side me/
ive dump'd every last bit of my needs/cuz my heart was broken, but takes a certain somebody 2 mend me like bandaids 2 skin'd knees/
ur the chosin one/i dont care if u takin/cuz im shakin wit feelins that not even i could be faking/


chorus**2 end**

i write this song in tear/i re live these thaughts in fear/
damage'd heart cant beat/cuz a certain gurl hasn't show'd 2 make 2 ends meet/
so i stay awake/brake my mind set 2 take in all i can take/
sleep wit anticapation/cuz im chasin after somethin thats already been takin/
overwelm'd wit tired and sorry hard felt days/remains of shav'ns of my past id rather throw away/


i'd luv 2 help out

__________________
THE RESTRICTED WUN HAS ROZE 2 CONQUER.....AGAIN!


I'M BACK!!!