Truly Xtreme

I watch people on the television/
They jumping off of cages and turnbuckles/
They be skating through halfpipes/
And they be punching with bare knuckles/

These are my heros, they are xtreme/
So why should I not be like them?/
If I could make money being dangerous/
It better than getting in another fight again/

But I'm xtreme in a different sort of way/
For me I hurt and I hurt on the inside/
I got all this pain building up from life/
So I relieve my pain by being on this scary ride/

Since never having parents causes me to hurt/
I wouldn't feel so much pain if I jumped into dirt/
Jumped from heights like fifteen feet in the air/
Landing on my back no one thought I would dare/

And then when my girlfriend decided to commit scuicide/
It was actually after those three on one fights where I cried/
Who would've thought it took three guys to bring me to tears/
Who would've thought I still refuse to face my fears/

Most people use a skateboard and they do it for fun/
But is it fun when going fast as you can down a mountain?/
And then you hit a wall and hope to break something but don't/
So you try it again to drown out all your pain but it still won't/

So you play all sorts of music like goth rock and goth rap/
And all this shit fucking sucks like goth pop and goth crap/
What I think would be xtreme is if I finally lost all my trust/
If I finally tortured and raped women and give in to my lust/

What is really xtreme is trying to fight fear of your sin/
I lust after everyone and I do my best not to give in/
But someday I fear I'll kidnap some girl to torture or kill/
How could I do something so sick just for a chip thrill?/

Or what if it goes deeper and I really do maim Magdelene?/
I tie her up and cut her up just to hear her corpse scream/
And what if my sick lust decides to go after little children?/
What I become sicker and sicker of a drip, well? What then?/

I tell you all that the most xtreme thing to do/
Is to face your sins and in my case it's lust/
Instead of drowing emotional pain with physical pain/
No matter what I do, I shall do what I must./

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Woah, I gotta say, this poem did not do what I had intended. I intended this to be a happy poem. But it turns out that I got shit to deal with that aint happy.

The thing is, I'm honestly afraid. I'm honestly afraid of what I might do. I mean, at first I would just beat off to pictures of naked chicks, like all guys... well like all straight guys and gay guys trying to be straight.

Well first my late girlfriend was a sado-masochist. She liked, during sex, giving and recieving pain. She taught me all I needed to know. I sort of became a regular masochist. I liked getting pain, I just didn't like giving pain.

Then I started talking to my one friend and asked him why he was attracted to guys. And you know, he made sense. I started feeling atracted to guys.

Then I read this thing on the internet written by a necropheliac. And I started feeling lured by dead bodies.

And this just showed what I felt inside.

And this story had me feeling twisted. On one hand I wanted to do what it was that Drip did to Areolest, on the other hand the saddness actually brought me to tears.

So, I'm a man of lust. Go figure. However, know that the only times I fucked, I did not fuck. The only times I had sex, I did not have sex. In hell they fuck. On Earth they have sex. In heaven they made love. I made love. Not lust.

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Originally posted by Bruklor Nec is just dumb

I'm taking that as a compliment.

that was nice but add more vocab

that was deep i really feel ya on that a lot of that ish i can relate. Keep up the rhymin it will help ya know

HE NEEDS NO MORE VOCAB this is his style its fine like it is......ppl just droppin dumb replys ..necro il lpeice liked the overall grasp of it beautifully written and nicely laid out plot wise HAZY

I must say the poem started off happy and turned twisted..but you know what. Your final thoughts and words had a deeper impact on me than ur poem itself. I have nothing but the utmost respect for you. Holla.

wtf do yall mean feelingz .. this kid iz sick
EXTREMELY SICK and yall are egging him on

Aight I take it I'm and the one above me the only people that READ the poem and not just SAW it...

Necro you need help forreal dogg.... you just fuckin scared the shit out of me...

How the hell ya'll gonna say need vocab n I can relate...
all ya'll muthafucka's sick...

Necro I'll talk to you in IM cuzz im trippin right now....
but you got some fucked up thoughts and a fucked up life and basically you need some fuckin help before you just fuck up.

HuNNeD

Goth rap?..i didnt know there was such a thing.
Necro- your shit is always out there,i know that much..Im not gonna come in here judging you, sayin youre sick and you need help..cuz i dont know you..but i do know, youre poem was crazy and deep in its own twisted way and prolly effected everyone who's read it so far..I actually liked the explanations at the end almost more than the poem itself..youre a very interesting individual and it shows in your writing..
You know..i dont think ive ever gotten a reply from you..You give good replies too..Just a realization i came across recently..not tryin to advertise my threads or nothin..just wonderin why ya never gave me a look..
anyway..nice piece..different, most definately..but nice..
stay up.
peace.

my word...

i've known people who are 'great' examples of 'extremes of the human mind and charicature and what not' if you would - and you my friend, are may not be right up/down there with them - but you are heading down that path...

...you say you fight it...like an eternal fight within..between good and evil...right and wrong etc. etc....and i would say the key is inner control....to control the mind, body and soul....to find levels of harmony and peace within by digging deep within...

...but i really dont know the full exten of it all.....or really know you fully...so i say...trying not to sound patronising...get some help...a psychiatrist or something...or just a close blud who you can speak to face to face, voice to voice etc. - who has a level head and a certain level of intelligence and wisdom about him....


..anyway....respect....

weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee^

wow ... diggin this ...
u spit wats on ur mind wid a twist,
good flow .. remind me of sumtin eminem would
do .. hmm i think i`ll be the only oen that thinks that,
It was raw ...

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