Originally Posted by chronix

cuz who cares about droppin on a rapsite....i record to finish projects, not for a rap site. If u only record to drop on a forum...u got problems.

Originally Posted by Queen of the blabbermouths

Everything under here is from the Q's oyd post

First of all, I want to say that I've thought long and hard about

what I'm about to say, and do. I've sought advice from a couple

people as to my course of action. And, I've even prayed about this

situation. Why? God says, "Cast all your care upon me for I care

for you." With that said, I am leaving OYD for good, on my terms.

Consider the following:


1. I quit my job (basically) back at the end of 2005 to pursue other

interests. I tried about 3 different jobs in the interim, all

without success. I attempted an at home business which would have

broke my bank. So, I called that quits. Then, I tried a sells

venture. I couldn't stand driving around to people's houses. So, I

called that quits. Then, I tried this rap label thing, and realize I

was way in over my head. That's when I decided to ground myself and

get a "real" job. I saw a great opportunity at Howard University and

pursued it. Up to that point, I was living on savings. I had

thousands saved up. God made it so I was able to have everything I

needed and desired nothing. But, I knew I wanted to take my career

along a different path. So, after three long interviews, Howard gave

me the call and gave me the position. And, I must say, it's the best

job I've ever had. I'm on a pristine campus doing what I love.

Furthermore, God has made it so I'm able to tithe (10% of my income)

almost 1/2 of what I used to NET when I first graduated from college.

God is good.

2. During the time that I was searching for a shift in careers, I

would spend mad time on RV and recording. I mean, I didn't have shit

else to do. I would write all day. I would record. I would go to

church. I would do what I had to do to get money. But, I was not

happy with the direction of my life. So, when you're not happy with

something, you change it. God allowed me to do that. While on RV, I

elevated a lot. I can honestly say that Tito's verse on "Smoke to

this" took my game to another level. It was amazing. It kicked my

own flow into another gear. And, for that I'm thankful. 3TE( Tony,

Tito, myself) was something I respected. We simply worked well

together, period.

At some point, casual acquaintances turned into friendships. I

became friends with CHO because he literally lived up the street from

my college. So, I decided to visit him to see the area again. It

was dope. Around the same time, Tony and I began to talk more on

AIM. I respected his views. In all, he was a chill person I didn't

mind conversing with.

Around March, I noticed that Tony no longer IM'ed me like he used to.

That was cool. I mean, people get busy. I didn't think anything of

it. But, then, I begin to notice that he was working/chatting with

other people and they were relaying his words to me. So, I began to

wonder why he couldn't just hit me up to send me a track, or to

holler, or w/e. So, I confronted him about it, amicably. Tony

responded with an attitude like "Well, that works both ways." I

wasn't quite sure what was the issue. But, that's when it all

started. To this day, I still don't know why all of a sudden he went

from playin online golf and chillin wit me, to having this animosity,

or what I felt was animosity, towards me.

During the course of several conversations, Tony has used my

sexuality as a weapon. Now, I don't know if he did this on purpose

or not. But, the fact is that he did it. On one occasion, he wrote

a line for a song that said, "Make you come out the closet faster

than Q" or something like that. Umm, that's offensive to me. That's

like something you say when you're trying to insult someone. Again,

when I confronted Tony about that, I was given this attitude of, "Oh,

I ain't mean nothing by it." Okay, I could buy that...but,

The conversation that led up to this current conflict (of which I'll

have none after this letter) was the straw that broke the camel's

back for me.

I'm a black gay man. And, in the black community (and in general)

gay men aren't considered "REAL MEN." So, during this phone convo

with Tony, he mentioned that he had some Burberry Cologne. I was

like nice, "Give me some since you have 2 bottles." Then, his

comment of, "But, it's for real men" was hurtful to me. I mean,

here's someone who claims to be my "friend" making derogatory remarks

like that. He said it. How was I supposed to take it? As a joke?
nawwwwwww...I kinda laughed it off at the time, even though it bothered me. The next day, I sat and thought about that thing and realized it was still on my mind. I knew I'd probably be having more conversations with Tony in the future, so, I wanted to clear this off my chest and set a bounds.

If you notice how I apporached him in the AIM convo he posted, I was very calm and collected. I only had an issue the next day when we had a completely separate convo about another issue. His track with Cho and Tito had a line in it that bothered me. So, I voiced my opinion about it. THe line said something like, "When I see a faggot I fuck him up." Of course I'm going to be bothered by that, especially from people I'm in a crew with.

The fact of the matter is, ever since Tito "let me back in" OYD I've felt nothing buy a cold shoulder from almost everyone here. Talk about PHONEY. JSummers in the LL saying, "Q, I respect you." Then, comes in the OYD forum questioning my mental sanity like "Yea, dat nigga Q crazy." What the fuck is that?

No one in OYD has a degree in Psychology. NO one in OYD has a medical license to psycho analyze me. So, I didn't appreciate that at all. Furthermore, I was big enough to call Tony when I was on the golf course to clear the air. He chose to ignore my call and hold a grudge. The bible teaches me that "if you know that your brother has an ought against you, go to him before you even come to the altar." However, if he doesn't want to hear me, I'm freed from that commitment. The bible says, "If your brother doesn't hear you, go again with a third party." I've tried to get Tito to mediate, but he's made his choice. He's friends with Tony and chose to accept his "truth" over mine. As a result of this, I've come to this conclusion, Tony is not my brother and never was. Therefore, there's no condemnation to me scripturally for what I'm trying to achieve, but can't seem to. God wants me to wipe the dust off and move on.

The fact is, Tony said some really nasty things about my family as well. The fact is, Tony says I'm ashamed of being "gay". Yet, he made the comment, "At least I don't sleep with dudes."

^^Hypocrisy...

I'm done with it. I don't need this. God has opened up doors for me and will open more. I've been through alot to elevate myself and to better myself. But, I'll be damned if I'm going to grovel at people's feet and kiss people's asses so they'll "like me."

Take me off the mixtape. Take my name off any and every thing related to OYD. Forget that I even exist. I know that I'm a good person and like to help people. I refuse to be anyone's damn black sheep. I have too much self respect for that.

I've PM'ed strobe and asked him to put TONY's name on my ignore list. I can't do it since it said he was a "mod" somewhere. So, I won't even be in communication with him. I won't see what he says to me or about me. I'm moving on.

Like any relationship that ends, both sides will eventually be stronger as a result. But, this is affecting me, even at work. So, I have to protect myself and my investments.

If I'm guilty of anything, it's of being a human being. That means I err. That means I'm flawed. But, I'm honest about it all.
Life is too short. And, I'll be happier as a result.
I FORGIVE MYSELF.


I'm out.


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Originally Posted by Nostradamus

I dont have to drop jack shit right now...

I'm stacking cash till the end of this year, then doing a diploma course at tafe that starts next year followed by moving down to sydney where theres more of a hip hop scene..

I'm gonna be living the high life by 2008 believe me.. I got my shit worked out nice.....

The nets meaningless to me dude..........

Originally Posted by T ha Q

Yes, the net is meaningless. But, I'm sayin...If all these audio heads are gonna be on here everyday, ALL DAY, yappin, why not drop some hot tracks and light up the songs forum?? This IS A RAP SITE!

RAP!!!!!!!!!

And yo...Nos...here's a bit of advice...Before you boast about what you're going to do 2 years from now, it'll be wise to say "God Willing". Why? You don't know if you'll be alive 10 minutes from now.


Tiz all


P.S. To those people who don't even rap who are running their mouths, all I'm going to say to you is, "Kevin Spacey in the Usual Suspects."

Figure it out.

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