confusion
today is the day ive dreaded since the beginning
the feeling i cant explain,
they say, "time heals all wounds"
and not soon but sometime
it will all go away,you feel no more pain
what have i gained,from what i lost?
and im the one lost,not knowing what to say
were this path is heading
or the direction i need to travel
im bafled and confused,did i choose the right
for me or was my mind undecided
i guess time will tell all,and i cant rush
yet at the chance of tomarrow from the fate of today
i might have felt her healing touch
brush my face another time
what of next summers time
i ask all these "what ifs" and "coulda beens"
but i already know the answers
the way things shoulda been,just couldnt be
family, friends, everything just wouldnt see
her voice echoes in my head,"i love you"
thats what she said,my heart drops like a lead weight
the sweet essence and sound they are all fake
in the wake of such beauty and all that is great
i may or may not have made the right choice......


i have no words left, i dont know why
inside i cant describe my emotions
im closed in, trapped..rafting through the oceans
my focus is still unclear
i still have this undieing fear
lookin into a mirror and seein how being alone looks
i feel sick to my stomach
something just isnt right
i have nothing at the end of every night
i need to be strong though
cant be overcome with pain and sorrow
look on to a new day, maybe.....
but what is tomarrow?
i guess i will find out soon enough
but for now as it is....
im guiding myself through the rough!


once again i have to more words to say
yet i keep coming up with more
each time i close the door, another opens
but to walk in i could get lost in its elements
steppin nowhere now i stand motionless
hoping this is for the better
and i could find another to be my baby

DAMNIT, i need to follow my heart
cause my mind has torn me apart
my baby was right there with me
i might have waited another night
im so fuckin stupid,why did i fight....
the words i thought i knew?
yet the time came..they just wernt there
i made them anyways,now im fuckin scared

fuck sleepers....uppin

damn this was a long piece....

truthfully...one reason this been gett'n slept on cuz it's fuck'n long...

it got a bit bor'n after like the first 5 bars...then got better...then got bor'n again...etc, etc, etc...i felt a couple of parts, like the first 3 lines outta every verse....

and not to be a dick or anything...but i really didn't like the end'n.......

no hate.....1

understood..some cats just dont relate....
it aint that long either yo! but w/e thanx for the reply kid