"This Life I Lead"

[Verse 1]
I wake up every mornin' with a feelin' of emptiness
My body is dead weight like I don't even exist
I done a lot of drinkin' and today I'm feelin' it
I regret all the choices I made in the heat of it
Throw my feet over the edge and onto the cold floor
Step out of bed and make my way to the closed door
Phone rings but I don't bother to answer it
Just another bitch who I done broke up wit'
I warm up yesterday's leftovers for a bite to eat
The food cold cause the microwave has no heat
In an hour it's off to the streets pedalin' drugs
Buyers range from kids to arrogant thugs
It's hard to make a livin' when cops can't see why
Laws are made to be broken not to abide by
From there it would be off to chill wit' the guys
But they're all dead from drive-bys

[Chorus x3]
It's the air that I breathe
It's the blood that I bleed
It's the strive to succeed
It's the life that I lead

[Verse 2]
I spend the whole day reminiscin' about the past
How things once were and how they changed fast
Can't afford a vehicle so I walk wherever I go
Up and down the streets back and forth to and fro
Stop by the cd shop to see what's new in stock
They got every genre of music but rap and hip-hop
I walk out empty handed wit' nothin' to bounce to
But this is how it is when you live where I do
Someone on the street bleedin' from bein' shot
The culprits run to a getaway car in a parkin' lot
I just ignore his diein' crys and pass him by
If it aint your family it don't matter who die
Lookin' for a job but there's none available
Tryin' to increase my finance but am unable to
Doesn't seem like things will ever get better
Especially when I workin' on a ten page suicide letter

[Chorus x3]
It's the air that I breathe
It's the blood that I bleed
It's the strive to succeed
It's the life that I lead

[Verse 3]
Up ahead a crowd has formed but what's the occasion
They seem to be gathered around a pale white caucasian
No one is movin' 'cause all their eyes are glued
This dude must be strapped is all I can conclude
But as I get closer I can see his hands are empty
Obviously this boy's hot but to what degree?
His lips are moving quickly in sync with his hands
Before I know it I find myself right where he stands
He stops entertainin' and goes deafly silent
No communication's made like a bad connection wit' Aliant
Our eyes lock as we search through each other's soul
I try to look away but it's out of my control
What happened next knocked me out of my zone
The guy disappeared and I stood all alone
Now confused and tryin' to figure out what had happened
It came to me at once...this is how I begun rappin'

[Chorus x3]
It's the air that I breathe
It's the blood that I bleed
It's the strive to succeed
It's the life that I lead

Y'all should understand what happened in the last verse but if someone don't i'll explain it.

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