Schizophrenia

staying in the darkness in the care and safety of a household
no contact, no being social with the human race I truly behold
i'm labelled as a psychotic man with many disturbing disorders
people call me pure insanity to reality they say i'm not in order
I fear of discrimination and I hold no ounce of any determination
they have no idea I see them from my windows with deep admiration
beautiful birds and the trees swaying from the breeze of weather
couples sitting on benches happily looking amazingly well together
Everyday I think of having that kind of relationship with another
but..I experienced things leaving me...like the love of my mother
I cry myself to sleep but in my dreams I see shadows in my mind
thoughts purely unsatisfying leaving me in distortion of mankind
brain withdrawing with my body I feel it...even my soul wants out
my heartbeat is slowly fading,one thing I can't live without...
that second I awake,a numbness in my legs I can barely maneuver
I felt a great pain and I can't seem to find a feeling remover
so I struggle...I ask above are you punishing me oh dear LORD?
please have my legs back to their condition... make it restore!

*please...a voice in his head awakens...*

a painful sight...a man twitching on a bed with no one around
was outruling himself out of society a sin to make him hellbound?
hopefully not for I have to search for yet another body to reside
or will a split personality come up will two sides finally divide?

*back to reality*

sins...none what I have done is truly not worth a brief discussion
*BOOM* I quickly slip and there I am left unconscious from a concussion

well I just put it in open in case I get another no-show

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