To fight the past is the hardest thing.//
Waking up in the middle of the night to it.//
THe ice of my soul has begun to chip off.//
My heart thawed a long time ago.//
Memories of my ex flood in.//
How I disgraced myself.//
To let him lead me to places and do whatever.//
The pain fills my eyes.//
To confront it is so hard.//
That pain is the monster of my life.//
The one I run from and hide.//
Anywhere, anytime, thats how it was, but I can never tell.//
Never tell you how bad it got.//
The one I look up to, you'd never understand.//
My cousin and sister, yet still no.//
Only 2 know, yet they'll never meet my monster.//
I cry when he wins.//
My heart burts, I can't hold it in.//
As soon as I can tell the pain of memories, it will be gone.//
The chains will be lifted, and the monster gone.//