feel me on this one....


I'm falling apart, my mind is breaking, body is acheing...
been lost from the start, theses suicidal feelings keep on crossing my thoughts...
I'm alone in the dark, a crippled spirit can only make it so far...
and so it didnt take long for me to stop believing in god...
I'm bleeding inside, every breath I breathe, my heart skips another beat...
Its crazy, because I've even lost my will to dream...
my will to breathe, I'm at the bottom, but how can I go up the stairs?...
if I pray to god every night, but he keeps lookin over my prayers?...
he's ignoring me, tell me, is this how its supposed to be?...
how can I believe in myself, if Jesus himself, isnt watching over me?...
one side of me keeps telling me to keep going, the other side says to quit trying...
"keep flying, you'll get there!" "No you wont, you're already dying!"...
so I close my eyelids, and clear the screams of everything in my head...
how can I be dying, I quit trying, dawg I'm already dead...