I just don’t understand why I was put here on this earth
Why didn’t my mom and dad just leave me dead to berth?
Less than a year old and in a hearse wouldn’t have been a curse
Now so old and all I can feel is my heart burst

The girl who I thought I knew isn’t what I thought
She is taking over my thoughts and everything I am not
Death would be so great right now and it’s true
The things ive wished ive had, but now all I want to do is turn blue

To be buried so deep that I will never see light again
And not have to worry about shit until I ever breathe again
I want to hear the laugh of the devil deep in my ears
Drinking a fifth of absinth and all I hear is more cheers

To be in my own world to where I have no feeling
To have my nerves dead to the world and knee deep to the ceiling
Go ahead and put my head in the guillotine
Make my pain go away like some sort of routine

Nail the coffin with steel so that death is all I will ever feel
I should have followed my brother and decided to deal
At least I wouldn’t have had any cares in the world
And no girl to ever picture dancing and doing a twirl

So take all that material shit and shove it up your ass
I don’t want anything from any one of you except for you to pass
Go ahead now and step near me and your flesh will cut from the glass
I want to hear your cries, and then you will understand my past

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"I didnt choose this life, this life chose me"

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