no chorus yet but I got the 3 verses done and already produced a beat for it\

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VERSE 1:
Im scared of my past, but Im more scared-of-my-future/
Scared-Imma-Lose-Her to all the people who tear-and-abuse-her/
Im scared of a cheater, Im frightened-by-lies/
Frightened-by-cries that I hold back and fight-with-my-eyes/
I hide from feelings, I even coward-to-secrets/
My power-is-weakness when my heart gets devoured-to-pieces/
I hate relationships, I run-from-the-truth/
To get to the “root” of the problem like what’s under-my-tooth/
I flee-from-the-scene, with feelings deleted-from-me/
Beating-my-dreams it seems your not as speechless-as-me/
My heart is gentle now, I’m getting afraid-to-mess/
Been played-the-best that now Id rather just be laid-to-rest/
Make no mistake though, my hearts-strong but long-gone/
My expressions just “cover” my feelings like coats to long-johns/
My appearance is happy, but insides-are-red-hot/
In time-my-head-pops and I begin to cry till my eyes-see-red-dots/

VERSE 2:
My eyes water with fear, I’m no-crier or no-liar/
My flows-tired, the ghost-writer who then arose-higher/
I began my climb to break-free from fake-glee/
You hate-me so much you fuck me over like you just raped-me/
Now I have a new reason to be afraid, its not nasty/
Im so happy because in 7 months Im gonna be a daddy/
Im afraid to fail my family, I will be the best-father/
Son or a daughter? nobody will help, why would the rest-bother/
It doesn’t matter to me as long as my baby’s-healthy/
God didn’t make-me-wealthy but we’re ok is what my lady-tells-me/
Im afraid my child-will-fail, thinking about me as it lies-in-a-cell/
While Im describing-my-self, my own kid will fall to the violence-in-jail/
Now you might think Im a scaredy-cat, but Im telling you now Im barely-that/
Because a lot of people scared to touch me like masseuses to hairy-backs/
I just know my future has in store-better, there’s more-cheddar/
And I can become the “sun” (son) who arose in this storm-weather/

VERSE 3:
Ive now realized that Im not just scared-all-the-time/
Im afraid of myself, but maybe my child will inherit-these-rhymes/
And read over and know what their fathers-about/
But I know my kid isn’t born yet so I cant bother-him-now/
I gotta overcome my fears, I was born stronger-than-this/
Ill be fond-of-my-kids, cuz I know my patience is longer-than-this/
I cant control my anger, what is it that’s got-me-thinkin/
Im caught-wit-satan, but I don’t need to run from the “law” to “cop-this-bacon”/
Its time to turn around, do a 180 and grow-up-High/
Ya know-these-cries to your baby aint what you wanna show-its-eyes/
Its time to be a man, do ya duties and be with-ya-girl/
Its-ya-girl that’s carrying the little thing which is-ya-world/
It takes two to make a child but it only takes one to ruin-it/
Ill see how true-it-is once its here and Im actually doin-it/
But until that day comes I need to face-my-fears/
Wait-for-years when Im so happy you can see my face-with-tears/