an orphan i was, never loved, memories stuck
my minds fucked, no one to idolize, never had much
shared a room with Twelve others
no sisters, brothers or a father and mother
i had nothing, ran away when i was fifth teen
sold drugs for money, no one ever knew i was missing
no files, identification, or social security on record
chemical imbalanced mind, no one for emotional support ever
became mature as a man, ever since my first step
frightened at night, having nightmares while i slept
there's no light, all my life iv been living on lies
I realize, couldn't remember my family if hypnotized
some say keep my head up, but for what reason
every day seems like winter, my souls always sleeping
crying because i can't remember, shit gets me furious
what's on the other side, has me living life curious


other sides a dream, gazing through pains mirror reflection
dead mother hides my screams, amazing who claims your neglection
agonizing thoughts could fill twenty library shelf's
blood stained eyes and my pride is thought to kill and hide my health
take steps on my own spine, just to carry the pain
hate keeps blocking the sunshine, I should just marry the rain
witness down pours daily, in this vicious life of lust
rapidly slit this frown before they save me, using this knife of trust
stay and forever fly alone, like a moth lost at sea
who would buy my clone? with all the personified evil tossed at me
Place this mirror behind me, to rid of the past
agonizingly taste this fear and remind me of my voice heard last
sore feet stuck to this path of no return and end
I reach out to malachai, but he closes the book named friend
soulless empty inside, namless, no were to flee this place
time to melt the glass im made of, so you can no longer see your face

Crhyme Sindicate