You're being a complete idiot. It doesn't matter. wtf are you going to do? Sit around wallowing in self pity, remembering how sad the past was for you so now your life is fucked up? You're fucking up your life right now. You're the only one that makes your future, so if you want your future to be better, make things better right now. If you're spending the present moment thinking about the shittiness of your past, then your future is going to be shitty as well.

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