I've had loved ones die in my life bro, dwelling on it isn't going to change the fact it happened. Continuing with my goals and accomplishing what I wanted when they were alive is what I try to do, they wouldn't want it any different and I'd rather use their passing away as motivation than a reason to give up what I want to do while I'm still around. I mean obviously you get feelings of sadness, I didn't say you wouldn't, but to throw everything away and become a completely changed man.. I don't know, it's not for me, but to each their own.