my mind stops , the cup drops, down to the floor, havin a flashback of shit that blocked out before, i see jeff, bloody and gore , cant fuckin breathe my body achin w/ horror. then see my mothers face, as my father walks out the door. i cant take no more, thought i was hard to the core, but little did i know the paper had already tore. i shoud a known this shit would leave me bloody and sore. then i see my self, standin in a crowed labeled as steve urcyl, shit im drivin to the edge, but yo im drivin in circles, told so many lies, and straight up fibs, and just for that shit, i'll have a glock shoved in my ribs, forever is now, and never is then, the end is the start, and the start is the end , look to the sky, and call out god, hopin the next minute wont be when i fall off, i'll rely on time, and time is fate, im goin to fast, i need to stop n' meditate. this is this, and that is that, the last picture comes to my mind, like a hawk eatin a rat, im stuck in this bind, i see my gurl, holdin my hand, then i see her naked, fuckin another man, this is it, i take up the knife, like im on death row, im holdin my life, but then i wake up, yo it was just a dream, i saw my life before my eyes, thats what i seen, all the shit i saw, damn it realy was real, but i keep walkin cause i got a fuckin heart a steel, now im sittin here cryin in the night, waitin on ladyluck, and the fuckin day light, go to sleep again, shit i might dare,for what i just had, was a soilders nightmare........