I write cause if I don’t I’ll kill
I don’t care whose blood I’ll spill

When the anger takes over that’s it
I curse I swear I kick I spit

Things just die
Lie there broken
Like my life

I can’t control the way I feel
I just pretend that I’m not real

If I’m not here I can’t feel pain
Can’t feel you stab me again

Can’t feel you stab me in the back
And twist the blade
And let it slack

Leave it there for all to see
Then step back and watch me bleed

I wont let you do that again
I wont drop my guard and call you friend

This shield wont drop not any more
And now it’s time we settle the score

It’s time you feel the pain you give
It’s time you die and watch me live

I’m dying inside because of you
My nightmares have all come true

You cannot see the pain I feel
And these wounds will never heal

Till I kill you I cant be whole again
Till I kill the one I once called friend

So now I give in to the pain
I’ll end your life and start mine again

I’m not sweet
I’m not calm
I don’t hold the world
Inside my palm

I’m just me
And me alone
The stupid boy
With no where to call home