A remember the first time a laid ma eyes on him
so smooth, smartly dressed and had looks that could kill
we hit it off right away and soon we were together
always in love no matter what the weather
a year passed and still we were in love
but things started to go wrong and lovin him got togh
tough as in agressive and i just got enough
packed ma bags and picked the kid up
tld him a was levin but he wouldnt hear of it
ran after me so a dropped the kid and thats when he hit
he took one look at ma face and ma shakin body and broke
am sorry baby i never meant it were the worse that he spoke
i couldnt believe what he done, ma face was so sore
this isnt been the first time its happened..happened before
with another man, a stayed for years because he knocked me sensless
i was so scared but now a gotta thing about ma kid
so i gets up and starts to walk thats when he picks up the baby
i dont kno what came over me a just went all crazy
startin hittin him all over tellin him to leave ma life
and take his stupid ring back.....am done wit bein his wife
he left in a rage and i swung the door shut
locked it and feel o the floor tears swellin up
carwled over to ma baby and just held him in ma arms
as soon as he was born i swore that i would protect him for harm
but now a aint so sure that i can even protect myself
maybe thebest thing ta do is give him up and start again
i looked into his eyes and i could see the love no more
so i picked up all his belongins and left him at some strangers door
wekks went past and no word came from ma husband
and ma baby was in some strangers hands
now am al alone and scared to leave my house
so am goin to the cupboard gettin rope to make a noose
measurin it to the wall i check for height hangin ma head in shame
when i hear a knock at the door callin out ma name
its ma husband cryin out fo me he came back but am scared
so i put the noose around ma neck and stand up on the chair
then when a start to nail it on he can hear the banging
some how he senses waht goin on and starts to kick the door in
i scream at him to go away but he just keep on goin
im scared and frozen in te spot cant focus on what am doin
he sees me standin there and his eyes go wide
he wants to kno where the baby is..but i just cant cry
he runs towards me as a step off and catches me before a fall
he tells me that he loves me and never wanted to leave at all
a tell him what ive done wt the babyand i felt his heart just die
his boy meant the world to him all he could do was cry
i said that we could find him but he just shrugged it off
ma short temper and selfishness suffered me a great loss
that night a tried ma best to find him but i just couldnt think
couldnt remember were id left him didnt kno what hood hes in
so i goes back and tells ma husband and he goes off in rage again
and here i am back too square one, crying ma tears of the red rain

this isnt connected to nothing at all.....its shite....but i thought id put it up.ruth a love ta baby this aint bout you aight..lol just incase ya get ideaz..totally fiction