Dear Family, It's Chris, I jus wanted to say, don't cry for my life, because Im now outta the way
My problems were escalating, things were lookin grey, life was gettin worst for me every new day//
Don't know where Im headed, up the the lord, but passin was painless, it was quick with the cord
It tore into my throat, it wasn't sore, but mourn quickly for me, Ill see you in the recovery ward//
But I will not make it through, this I had to do, you guys weren't the problem, Im not blamin you
My mind wasnt right, hell it was screwed, I hid the signs so you wouldn't worry, but they was surfacing through//
My name was being called, was bein followed by death, believe me, this I tried to stall
But I couldn't hold the lie, I was gonna fall, and had to do this for me, it wasn't you guys at all//
Mother I love you wit all of my heart, and our relationship was finally headed for a good start
Sorry to cut it short, I know it'll be hard, but it was my only choice, sorry we have to part//
Dad, you've always been there, tough but fair, I know you loved me, and I know you will care
when you see my throat, the tear, ignore it, it's my war wound, life battle, and when you pass, I'll be there//
Kevin, my brother, we fought quite a lot, But im sorry for it all, Hate you? I do not
Stay away from smokes, drugs n pot, keep yer head on straight, Ill be watchin you wit god//
To the rest of my family, and all of my friends, sorry for bringin my life to a short end
Contend wit yer life, move to the next bend, and forget about me forever, and you shall all be content//
This is the hardest thing, Ive ever wrote, and I won't confess my sins, for it should hurt mom the most
But endin my life, seems the best antidote, so I love you all is how I will end --- my suicide note//

More of a poem, I know..... jus postin some old stuff up for people to get the feel of my ish. nahmean?