"Cries"

i never had so much fuckin pain inside
damn why u do me so wrong u kept mah name alive
omg i miss u, but picture that look on ya face
when u was lookin tha other way..
i wish i would die i cant possibly live another day!
all i done for u, u gotta come at me wrong
an this aint jus lyrics slapped into a song
this is mah pain an sorrow commin outta my heart
tha heart that bleeds everyday for u, i first heard tha news
i didnt know what to say to you..
how could u do such damage to me like that
i thought u was special i didnt think u was like that
u tore mah heart from my chest stepped right on it
smiled at it too guess u havent kept quit honest
how u could do this to me and still tell me u love me
still act normal and still call me ur lovey??
still hold mah hand still kiss me an hug me??
i cant sleep or eat, breathe another day knowin this
said u never give me reason to cry , well now im showin it
i didnt think this would ever happen how u kept this from me?
said u would tell me everything but i guess u thought "except this"
u leavin me i cant ever accept this..u promised me so much
how could u be so cruel, now i dont care bout school,
i dont care about music, dont care bout life or livin
i wish i could take a knife an give in, stab myself twice and stop livin!
im cryin this song out, cryin cuz u special to me but i aint specil to u
cant live witout somethings esepcially you..
i stay prayin to God hopin that he'll make things better
but i cant get to him cant write him a letter..
I just want things tha way they used to be,
if not like that i just wanna be a used to be
how could u leave such a big bruise in me?
I cried out so much, still cryin while im writtin
still as im rappin...we was never fightin, so why did this happen??
i was good to u, i was there for u i cared for you/
guess u felt different hada hurt me badly/
and now i got noone cant turn to daddy/
cuz daddy'll just laugh at me, an moms'll say its ok
but it aint ok when ur reason to live jus walked away/
dissed me ,cuz of things i was shy or afriad bout
i tursted u more than anyone and now im played out
u really made me cry like a baby, but maybe
that cryin didnt help me, and u hurting me drove me crazy/
i wish i coould wake up form this nightmare an forget it ever happened/
but i guess Dreams DONT come true, cuz damm forever didnt happened/