aight this is pretty much all true

I thought it was within reach
All planned out, I had prepared my speech
Everything was lookin great
Gettin prepared for the date
Thinkin it was all set and I had the green light
Only a couple days away from the big night
I was startin to get the nerves
Thinkin about her perfect curves
Askin her out should be easy, I think she could be mine
After all she givin me all the signs

Two days before the big day
Things are lookin bright a blue, but there's a storm comin in, things turin grey
I get the call, she's on the otherside
She starts sayin my friends be talkin, lettin her on the inside
Tells me she doesn't wanna hurt, but she jus flirtin, I wanna get in a room and hide

Feels like I been shot, bombed and kicked while I'm down
I got no fight in me, all i do is frown
Fuck i thought she could be the one
Now I'm just done, this ain't no fun, I jus wanna go away and run
I still wanna be close friends
But anything beyond that will lead to dead ends
She's the one I want but cannot have

My friend is who I most mad at
You don't wanna know what would happen if I had a gat
I didn't tell him to talk about what I was gunna do
It was him who told her, I knew
Don't know what to do
I'm to mad to think
My heart got a hole in it, it's about to sink

Lemme get some anger and energy out
Fuck life, lemme get the fuckin knife
Wrists feel like slittin, neck feels like breakin
No man my life I would never be takin
Over shit like this, she just seemed so close
So much better then most
Fuck it, better then all the population
She was a sensation god's greatest creation
At least we still friends, wouldn't want that to end