This is to You

its like all of my life, i've been hiding the stress
I've grown cold hearted, bearly a beat inside of my chest
Emotional, my life is in doubt
Instead of acting out the pain, im writing it out
Most people say im outgoing and fun
Picture this, my lips on the barrel, me holding the gun
I say im fine, i've been lying for years
Until it rains i have no choice but to hide in the tears
Every friends been a bruise on the heart
Im loosing my spark, like a short fuse in the dark
Big stars got fortunes for forfiet and roast
All i have is my moms, who supported me most
Yea i'll amdit it, i actually cry
And i'll gladdly leave for you if you'd ask me to die
THis is to you, i made it my plans to pass
Away just so you kno your the only chance i have
Before i loose it, my life down the drain
A lost soul, before he got crowned the fame
Its 3rd and long, i need a first down to gain
IF you know the real me , would u give pounds the same?
Or would you look away and let me drown in pain?