Yo this shit right here is just some frustration i gotta get off my chest.....(2nd verse is something new i was playin wit, peep it)


So many bad times I survived//
so many times I had to let my real emotions hide//
cuz when your born a man your taught not to cry//
everyday i wake up not caring wether i live or die//
Sometimes i wonder if i was ment to be here or if it all was just a big mistake//
To deal with the pain I use alcohol and smoke weed, im so baked//
Suicide used to consistantly run through my mind//
It was like i was living life in the dark even though im not blind//
As you grow you get used to people treating you like shit, nobodys ever kind//
Even in the rap game after you blow up someones always tryin to take away your shine//
Life is a rat race//
My advice is go at your own pace//
Dont ever let anyone ever fool you and make your name a discrace//
Remember where your from and thank the people who helped you get their//
Fill your heart with love, dont be like me and let it get cold and bare........


: Pause :
Fuk a chorus, this is for the fake thug in the street


What do you know about bein a man//
what do you know about have'n cuffs constrict both hands//
what do you know about survive'n in the streets, you had to fight//
what do you know about cryin wile lookin up at the starz prayin for something to finally go right//
what do you know about spendin 2 years of your life in a jail cell//
what do you know about have'n so many bad memories you cant remember any good ones to tell//
what do you realy know about seein 3 of your close friends shot dead right infront of you//
what do you know about the closest family you have is your crew//
what do you know about being 18 and seein more shit in your life than you should//
what do you know about when your around your moms and girl you always pretend to act good//
what do you know about bein a real thug//
what do you know about usin actin tuff as an escape when all you ever really wanted was a hug......WAS A FUCKIN HUG!!!

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*R.I.P*
Jimmy L. , Louis L. , Aj R. , Tyler R. , Chris R., Dan W. , Matt F.......
" You all will never be forgotten and your spirits live within us all!!! R.I.P*"


" So for the 2nd time [The Pharisses] summoned the man who had been blind and said
"Speak the truth before God. We know this man is a sinner."
"Wether he is a sinner I do not know."
:The man replied:
"All I know is this...Once I was blind and now I can see"
John 1x 24-26