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10-11-03, 04:29 AM
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Retired.
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SS Verse: Alley Ways (deepest yet)
IP:
It Begins
Born with lack of money... another bred into poverty... No father figure... no love... Nothing to satisfy me... Blind to the misery... Looking at the word with open eyes... But grew to dispise how my own hunger could paralyze... Confused youth... How to explain all these men around... One stays but visits continue... My worries abound... The fighting freezes me... I cant fathom the hatred... Find out whether happiness or rage.. the drugs had made it... Revelation on the horizon... Was I ready for the sound... Of the words that flipped my whole world upside down... "Your real father died when you were 2 weeks old...." Going insane... My so called family... All pretend... If I dont even understand myself... How can I fit in... Strive to fit the mold... Another faceless 12 year old... Statements never bold... The true story never told... Somehow peers accepted... Finally having friends... Back of the mind wondering the reaction if I filled them in... Stoicism takes over... Conforming yet hiding myself... Put on a smile but the whole time crying for help... But I must fit in... My family composed of aquantences... Removed from instabilities.. ...but still cant express myself, What a pain this is... Finally I come to terms with my existence.... Spent my life trying to meet others ideal perceptions... Little did I know I'd grow to hate the reflections... Must find a harmony... Be happy but yet true to me... Its like the world and everything was completely new to me... Acceptance is empty... If a man cant accept his reality... So time to let the truth flow... With its ultimate finality... As the knife drew close... Someone stopped my lunacy... Someone who felt my pain... Willing to work it through with me... So in truth I lost acceptance... But this love's not a faze... Foget the main streets... I'd rather exist in alley ways... |
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