"Ultimate Regression"

I can't stand the world, I'm seen wearin' my head-set
Always listened to 2Pac, but ain't seen "Better Days" yet
Another day another struggle, a teen so misunderstood
These emotions are within, I've yet to see the good
A tear runs down my cheek, as I lose more of my soul
For all this to be gone, would mean I've reached my goal
My shadow has abandoned me, it's found a better place
But I aint goin' nowhere, I'm in an enclosed space
I feel as though I'm worthless, is anybody there?
Someone who can help me, who can mend my dispair
I should exit this world, I have nothin' more to live for
Too many pressures arise, I can't continue on anymore
If only it would fade away, maybe then I would be successful
Life's a tug-of-war, and I aint got the strength to pull
I stand in front of the mirror, and am missin' a reflection
My whole bodie's out of order, I need a resurrection
I don't respect myself, thoughts of inflicting pain
This is a lost fight, I've gave up the use of my brain
These are the chapters of my life, I'm almost to the end
I wouldn't expect you to understand, since you've never been
Wishing for a change, but it's unlikely there'll be one
Too much weight on my shoulders, it feels like a ton
A race against time, and I know I'm the one who'll lose
I never wanted this life, I never got to chose
A fighter without his shield, I'm hit with every attack
Nothin' to protect me, I'm forced to retreat back
The stars outline my future, as I see them in the sky
I don't like what they show me, is it possible they lie?
I'm all by myself, as I travel this lonely path
You have all the equations, now figure up the math
God please take my hand, and lead me far from here
I'm afraid of what I might do, if given another year
A dark cloud over head, I'm in a state of depression
Bein' released from the womb, that's my ultimate regression